Something Good

"Perhaps I had a wicked childhood, perhaps a miserable youth, but somewhere in my wicked, miserable past, there must have been a moment of truth. For here you are standing there loving me, whether or not you should. So somewhere in my youth or childhood, I must have done something good. Nothing comes from nothing, nothing ever could, so somewhere in my youth or childhood, I must have done something good." Julie Andrews "Something Good"

Whoever says life is easy, well there is no way in the world that could be true considering what I've been through this week. These past few days have been so challenging. It's hard seeing my parents having a hard time too. My dad has been out of work for almost 6 months. Having three girls in college definitely puts a hurting on their income. Thankfully all of my schooling has been paid for by grants so I don't owe anything and I don't have to struggle to pay my tuition.
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One of the things that has caused a lot of hardship this week is paying for my books and parking. Financial aid doesn't pay for books or parking. So $800, where do I get it from? Money surely doesn't grow on trees and I don't have any hidden in my couch cushion. Everything is taken care of now but it has caused so much stress. Chad has been so wonderful, always offering to help pay but I hate to ruin all that we have saved. I have figured out alternate ways of paying so all is well now. I don't understand why they have to make it so hard for students, they know we don't have any money. Oh well, how else do you learn? Life wouldn't be any fun if we had everything given to us on a silver platter. I guess I will look back one day and think how silly all of this worrying was. Now that it is all settled, I will have confidence in the coming weeks, Bachelors degree here I come!

"What will this day be like, I wonder? What will my future be, I wonder? It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be free! My heart should be wildly rejoicing, oh what's the matter with me? I've always longed for adventure, to do the things I've never dared. Now here I am facing adventure, then why am I so scared? .... Oh I must stop these doubts all these worries, if I don't I just know I'll turn back. I must dream of the things I am seeking, I am seeking the courage I lack. The courage to serve them with reliance, to face my mistakes without defiance, show them I'm worthy and while I show them, I'll show me. So let them bring on all their problems. I'll do better than my best. I have confidence, they'll put me to the test. But, I'll make them see that I have confidence in me. Somehow I will impress them, I will be firm but kind .... With each step I am more certain, everything will turn out fine. I have confidence, the world can all be mine, they have to agree I have confidence in me!" Julie Andrews "I Have Confidence"