My family likes to do both together. My mom and dad were both out of town this week. Both for completely different reasons. Mom was in Beaufort for business and dad was in Texas because my Paw Paw is under care of Hospice. My mom's birthday was on the 16th so we didn't get to celebrate until last night. My dad was home in time for Father's Day but I don't know if he was happy to leave his dad, my paw paw.
Do you know what it is like to be separated from your family? The only family I know here in Charlotte is my immediate family (mom, dad and sisters). I never grew up around 95% of my family and we were lucky if we were able to see them every 2 years. It's hard and it is not the best feeling in the world. The grandaddy that I got to see several times a week died several years ago. Now we reach as far as we can to try and touch the ones that are still alive in Texas. I am getting married next week and none of my family will be there. It's hard and I am not going to say this about you but some people in the world take for granted that they live 2 hours, 1 hour, or even 30 minutes or less away from their families. I don't and when you have one who lives half-way across the country who is dying, it is hard. You cling tight to the photos of the summer you spent with them, or the long-weekend they spent with you, the pictures when you were young, and they were young, wishing you could go back to those moments.
What do you do when you are this far away? I breathe a deep breath and let out a huge sigh because from here I can do nothing. Yesterday was Father's Day and I didn't send my Paw Paw a Father's Day card. Now I am feeling regret, would he have gotten it? All I can do is pray at this point, maybe he might make it and prove to everyone what a strong man he is?
At least I got to spend Father's Day with my dad. I will continue to ponder and pray for my Paw Paw but I truly am blessed to have spent Father's Day with my own dad. Chad was able to see his dad on Father's Day. Chad and I are blessed. Sometimes, well, all the time, I pray to God that I would be just a little bit closer to my family. Right now I can look forward to a trip with Chad to Texas, next year... What will next year be like? Well, for today, I will continue to live for today. Thank you God for giving me today. What will today be like?
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